Feeling unwell

Even though I woke up feeling fine this morning, throughout the day my energy levels are rapidly depleting and I just dont feel very well at all. I am feeling tired and drained, even though I havent been very busy and I feel nauseous too.

I have been getting hot and cold flushes also, which suggests I probably have a touch of a stomach bug or some other virus. Fingers crossed it will pass quickly and I will be back to my usual energetic and bubbly self before I know it.

I feel terrible as I know that I am not very good company for my poor boyfriend but for the the time being I just need to look after myself. Which means having a rest day and letting my body recover from whatever I have. 

I love having a clean house

Athough I cant say I really enjoy cleaning up my house that much, I think that having a clean house at he end of it gives you the best feeling! I hate clutter and I hate mess but ufortunately I just dont have the time or energy whilst I am working everyday to get in and clean up. I know that the best solution to this problem would be to not let the place get in a mess in the first place, however no matter how hard I seem to try, the place always gets really messy.

Clothes end up on the floor in my bedroom, loungeroom and bathroom, dirty washing gets thrown in the laundry and the floor gets dirty too (mainly due to feathers and bird seed being scattered around tthe house from my bird cage. So Thrsdays have basically become my weekly clean up day. So today I have cleaned my sinks and toilet, done a load of clothes washing, Vacuumed and mopped all the floors, made my bed, unpacked my bags afer babysitting last saturday which were still sitting on my kitchen table, sorted all the clothes scattered around my house and I have completely cleaned my kitchen too.

So now it feels good to be sitting back and looking around at a clean and orgaized house. Also, another great thing about having Thursday to do all my housework is that it means I don't have to do it on the weekends. Instead, on the weekends I can just enjoy myself and relax. It is still rainly so I really dont think I will be able to get my washing dry. I think I will just put it in my mums dryer when I take Amy home today after she finishes school. Poor Tess isn't hapy that I haven't taken her for a walk yet today, but if the  rain stope I may take her for a little walk this afternoon.

Once I finished my housework, Ilaid n the couch to watch some Grays anatomy and actually fell asleep for almost an hour. By the time I woke up I was hungry so had a delicious lunch and now I am just waiting for my mum to come and visit me in her lunch break. Then it will basically be time for me to take Amy home. I hope that everyone is having a great day! :)

Egg, Mayo and Lettuce Sandwich with a creamy Blueberry yoghurt and an Apple

Just a little update

Yesterday was another positive and happy day for me which I am thankful for. The day started off very busy and hectic as I had to get all the kids I was babysitting off to school before I headed to work myself.

I was up at 5am with one of then as she had to travel back to boarding school in the city on the bus, so I ate breakfast with her and then headed for my walk with Tess as soon as she left. When I got back, I had to get all the other kids ready for school.

Once all the kids were picked up I had to head straight to work so that I wouldn't be late. I had a busy day at work which made the day pass quickly which was good. I was pretty tired by the time I got home from work so I just had some tea, walked Tess and then relaxed for the rest of the night.

Even though I have been quite tired lately, I am still feeling really happy, healthy and positive which is all I could ever ask for. I have realised that sometimes things happen in life that arent great, but we shouldnt let these things ruin our happiness. We just need to keep moving forward and enjoy life while we are here.

Today I am working at the bank again. I feel as though there is so much to do at work at the moment but I know I cant let myself get stressed out. I just need to keep a clear head and get it all done. I am just about to take Tess for a walk which I cant really be bothered doing to be honest. Having a snooze on the couch seems much more tempting.

I hope everyones week is going great. Enjoy your day :) x

Day at the river

I am so sorry I havent written any posts today. I have just been  flat out looking after the kids and really havent had time. Anyway, here are some photos from my day. We spent most of the day at the river which was great fun, even though I am sunburnt now.

A very productive morning

This morning I have ad a very productive morning which is fantastic. After sleeping in until 6:45, I got up and made myself some breakfast before starting to clean my house.

My house was a huge mess as I really haven't had a chance to do any housework for over two weeks, but I feel so much better now that it is practically done. First I just tidied up and gathered aall of the clothes and other things that were aprawled across the floor over my whole house. I gathered up all of my washing, vacuumed the floor, washed and dried up, cleaned my kitchen, changed my bed linen and made up the beds. Now I just have to try my hardest to keep my house in the state that it currently is, as I realy hate mess.

It in't a very nice day outside so I decided to light my fire and haven't yet taken Tess for her morning walk. Mum is going to call in durin her lunch break which will be nice and am hoping to have a chat to her and get some advice on some of the drama going on at the moment in my life haha. Even though mum and I have certanly had some problems over the years, she has made it very clear to me over the last ew months that f I ever need to taalk to her about anything I can, which I reallly appreciate. She often talks about the fact that she never had anyon to talk to about boys or anything like that and that she doesn't want me to go through the same thing.

Sometimes I just wish that life didn't have to bbe so complicated. Its so unfair that some people seem to have no trouble at all finding a boyfriend but I obviously just have a real talent for falling for the wrong guys. Even though we we both always seem to like one another a lot, there always seems to be something standing in the way of us being togther. Buut I am not going to let this get me down I am so happy and enjoying life so much right now that I am ot going to let anything, especially boys get in the way. I know that eventally things will work out ok if I am patient.

 Sorry, I didn't mean for this post about my day to turn into a post about my love life haha... Now back to my day. I just had a delicious morning tea of a banana and a chocolate pop tart. I have also been snacking on black jelly beans throughout the morning too, which I am slightly addicted to at the moment haha.

morning tea: banana and choxolate pop  tart

I am going to take my sister Amy to Swimming training after school which I am really looking forward to watchinng. I loved swimming so much when I was younger and according to mum, Amy sims just like I used to. I just hope that Amy's Collar bones don't dislocate as mine eventually did and force her to stop swimming, like mine forced me to. And after swiming I am going to bring Amy back to my place where she has to get read for netball. Then once she leaves Iwill proably just take Tess for her evening walk and cook myself something nice for tea. Since I hve beenso late getting home each night I haven't had the chance to reallly cook much ove the last few weeks. Everynight I ust seem to have microwave rice or patsa meals with vegetables or salad.

I hope that everyone has a great day. Remember that in order to make your dreams come true, you need to work hard and fight for them. And that every day that you dont fight, you are onnly stopping yourself getting closer from recovery and from being truly happy :)

Some photos from my morning

My day

Today has been an incredibely busy but also an incredibly good day :) I got up nice and early like usual and made myself a yummy breakfast of two slices of toast topped with a mashed banana as well as a bowl of cheerios with milk. Then I took Tess for a walk along the beach which was nice. After I got back and organised I started the trip to Hobart. I actually dont mind driving so much, especially when I have some good music to listen too.

On my way to Hobart, I stopped to watch some of my best friend Jemmas inter school athletics carnival. I was very proud of her as she came first in both of the events I saw and did extremely well. I then continued on my way to eastlands shopping centre where I planned to do my shopping. I have never been brave enough to travel all the way to eastlands before by myself as driving in places I am not very familiar with scares the hell out of me but today I was feeling ok about doing it. I got there with no worries at all and as I was really hungry the first thing I did was go to find some lunch. 

This is something that would have been impossible for me once, or would have atleast required hours of thought and preparation but today I didnt know wat I was going to have until I was being asked what I would like. I ordered exactly what I felt like, a bowel of hot chips with Sauce and I am so glad to say that I really enjoyed them. Even though I had no idea how many calories it contained and it cerinly wasn't a 'healthy' lunch option, I honestly didn't care which just goes to show how far I really have come in my recovery!  

I bought a few things that I really needed as well as some things that I didnt really need haha, like the sports clothes you can see below. After I finished clothes shopping, my stomach was starting to grumble a little so I went and got a chocoolate thick shake from wendy's which was also delicious! Today I feel as though I had an extremely successfuul dhopping day as I not only bought lots of nice things, but I also just enjoyed myself and felt like a normal girl. I didnt spend the day worrying about food or my weight or anything like that and it really was the most amazing feeling! :)

When I got home at about 6 o'clock, Tess was waiting eagerly for me. So after putting away my groceriees I made myself tea (which was beef lasagna and salad) and then took Tess for a run. I haven't gone for a run for a while but because it was late and I still had so much to do, I didnt wantto spend too much time walking Tess so I thought it would be a bit quicker to run with her. I was surprised by how much I enjoyed running and think I will do it again for sure! When I finally did get home, the tiredness of my huge day finally hit me so I just sat on the couch and ate some more food before going for a shower. 

It is currently 10:10 pm so I really should get to bed as I have a full day of work again tomorrow.. Goodnight everyone!   

Home is where the heart is

Even though I couldnt live at home for various reasons, my family home is still without a doubt my favourite place in the world. I love going and visiting home when I have the day off work and I love seeing my family. I caught up with my dad, little brother and little sister today which was great. It made me realise that I should go.and visit gome more often, especially since it is only a 10 minute drive away.

After going out for lunch with jemma we went for a drive up the coast and then went to her place for tea. Overall it was another amazing day Which makes me think about how grateful I am to be living this life and how happy I am to be so far into my recovery!

A perfect morning

This morning really has been perfect. I woke up quite early but in a truly wonderful mood. I bounced out of bed and watched an episode of grays anatomy before getting myself some breakfast. I had 2 slices of cashew spread on toast as well as a bowl of creamy vanilla oats and they were delicious. I honestly think I could eat this every single day and still.would never get sick of it. After relaxing for a while longer, I got ready to take Tess for a walk.

We set out on the beach and I was so happy that the sun was shining and that it wasnt too cold. We ended up walking for an hour or so because it was so nice and i was enjoying it so much. I was also listening to music the whole time too which makes walking even more enjoyable for me.

I an so glad that I have been doing a gair but of cleaning over the last few days as it means I dong have to spend the whole day doing housework. Instead I am going to visit my brother as it was his birthday yesterday, see my sister and then hang out eith my cousin Jemma. We are thinking about going out for lunch at the bakery as well as taking our dogs for a walk together.

I hope everyone has a good day! :)

Mid week madness

After what feels like another hectic day, I am finally sitting down to relax for the rest of the night. After getting up at 6am, having breakfast and writing a post, I took Tess for a nice long walk. It was a lot cooler this morning when I walked Tess then it has been lately (only 4 degrees celcius) but fortunately the sun was still shining and the day warmed up quite quickly.

I had an ok day at work although ny co-worker wasn't very nice to me (which I am just starting to expect as I think it is simply a part of her personality). I tried not to let it bother me but I couldnt help but get a bit upset. It isnt necessarily what she says but instead the tone she speaks to me in. And I also feel as though I need to be perfect all the time as otherwise she will give me a hard time, which really isnt what I need at the moment, whilst I am trying to overcome my perfectionism.

When I got home, it was nice and warm so I decided to take Tess straight for a walk. I Walked Tess to the supermarket so that I could pop in and see my gorgeous cousin Jemma and chat with her as she had to work once she finished school. It was really nice to see her as always and we planned to do something either Thursday afternoon or this weekend. I am so excited about this weekend as it is the first week off work that I have had in ages and my best friend Jocelyn is coming to stay with me for the weekend.

Jemma and I

When I got back home, I cookef myself special egg fried rice with extra vegetables. It was super delicious as always.  After tea I spent almost an hour trying to tidy up my house a little as it was in a huge mess. I didnt get a chance to do any house work on the weekend as I worked and went out so there were clothes scattered everywhere. I feel nuch better now I have atleast made a start to tidying up my house as I hate mess and wont have quite as much to do on Thursday which is my next day off.

I just got out of the shower and had some watermelon and a bowl of icecream for dessert. The icecream is a 'lolly bag' tub with musk flavour, banana lolly flavour and bubblegum flavour. I highly reccommend this type of icecream as it is super delicious. My favourite of the three flavours was the musk. Now I am planning on just laying on the couch and watching The biggest looser before going to bed. I hope your week is going great! :) xx

Super busy day

Today certainly has been very busy and I feel as though I haven't stopped since I got up early this morning. After eating breakfast I took Tess for a long walk, put my wet washing out on the clothes line and got ready for work as I had to start at 8:30. I have been on my feet running around after customers all day and in my short lunch break I only had enough time to get myself some lunch which I ate while writing a blog post.

The afternoon went quite fast although quite a bit of chocolate and lollies were eaten to get me through to knock off time. My final job at work was sweeping the entire floor of the shop which is actually quite tiring and time consuming. As soon as I knocked off work at 4:30, I came home but had lots of jobs to do. 

I had to get my washing in off the clothes line, do the washing up, put clothes away and start tidying my house as I am not going to get a chance to do it any time soon as I am back to working at the bank tomorrow. I quickly did a bit of revision as I am doing an assesment for my traineeship tomorrow which I hope I go ok in but I really don't have heaps of time to put into that so I am hoping that all of the work I have allready done is enough. 

Then I prepared my tea which is currently cooking now as I write this post. I am just having a piece of crumbed chicken as well as 3 tempura chicken Nuggets, Caulliflower Broccoli, carrot and mashed potato with BBQ sauce (I will add a photo to the bottom of this post once it is ready). It feels good to be finally sitting down however I still need to take Tess for a walk after tea and also have a shower. 

Although I am feeling quite tired, I am still looking forward to taking Tess for a nice walk on the beach as it is a gorgeous evening and I hated being stuck inside all day at work while everyone else enjoyed the beautiful weather. As you can see, today has been really full on so I am sure I will sleep well tonight, especially after not getting very much sleep last night.

I hope that everyone had a fantastic weekend :)

Still smiling, even though I am exhausted :)

My Yummy Tea 

A few pictures from my morning