No longer sensitive to the cold

Although it may not seem like a  big deal compared to some of the ther symptoms of anorexia, feeling freezing cold all the time was one of things I hated most of all about anorexia. When I went into hospital I was experiencing hypothermia which was truly aweful. I remember just having to lay there, my my bed with my electric blanket going all the time so that I wouldn't feel quite so freezing. This winter I didn't even have an electric blanket on my bed however!

After I got out of hospital, I didn't have serious hypothermia so much but I was still always freezing cold all the time. My fingernails always seemed to be blue and I couldnt do some things that I wanted to do, because Iwas so sensitive to the cold. Even in the middle of summer I couldn't go swimming at the beach or river with my sister as this would just cause me to become far to cold and once my temperature dropped, it wass a very difficult thing to get it to increase again.

One of the biggest everyday things that I have noticed since getting so much healthier is that I no longer feel the cold any worse then other people. In fact, I am probably more 'warm blooded' then the average person. For example yesterday it was quite cold so I had my fire going but as I was doing my housework, I felt as though I was oerheating so I ended up just doing it in my sports bra and a little pair of shorts. I felt completely comfortable wearing this temperature wise and I couldn't help but think about how cold I would have once felt wearing this.

I then went and took Tess for a quick walk, still only wearing the small shorts but also a jumper and even though the aair was cool, it certainly wasn't too cold. Once I got movng I felt completely comfortable and not once did I wish I had warn some longer pants. Even now, although it is only 7 degreess outdoors, I am sitting up in only a sports bra and a pair of little pyjama shorts, as that is what I wore to bed last night, and I feel fine! I know that the reason I no longer feel the cold is because my thermoregulatory system has been able to repair itself and has started working efficiently, now that I am providing myself with the energy my body needs.

Also, I guess I feel so warm all the time because I eat so much and so often, as heat is a product in the food metabolism process, (when the food you eat is digested and when the energy is used throuughout the body). With summer appraching, I am so happy to be feeling so healthy and I am excited that for the first time in a long while, my sensitivity to the cold will not stand in the way of me doing things that I want to do. I am so glad that I no longer suffer from sensitvity to the cold or hypothermia and I hope that I will never do so again!

To anyone out there trying to stay warm whilst battliing an eating disorder, there are various different thhings you can do to warm up. Especially in winter, I always wore many layers and also had a warm heat pack, permantly attatched to me which I would cuddle or have resting on my stomach. Of course the best advice I can give to you is to nourish your body and allow it to recover. Only then will you no longer feel the cold so much!

A bad day at work

Yesterday, I had a really bad day at work. As I am still only in training at the bank, I usually spend a bit of time working on the counter and also a bit of time doing some online training courses. Yesterday I spent the whole day doing the online training courses as that is what the other lady I work with wanted me to do. Although I would prefer to do a bit of work on the counter as well, it didn't bother me that much as it meant I could get lots of my training out of the way,

What did bother me was the way the other lady spoke to me all day. She was bossy, inpatient and at times nasty. I couldn't explain why she was acting like this but it felt very personal, like she was mad at me for some reason. Especially since she was being really friendly and polite to the other staff member that was there.  I know that she could have personal stuff going on at home but I don't think that gives her any right to take it out on me.

By the end of the day I was too frightened to speak as I felt as though she would instantly jump down my throat and each time she snapped at me I felt really upset. At one moment I even had to hold back tears. Yesterday was the first day since starting my new job at the bank that I left feeling really down and flat. I really hope that things are better today, otherwise I may need to consider talking to my boss, as I don't think I could handle being treated that way, every single day I work. Today is a new day so I know that I need to forget about yesterday and turn up to work with a positive attitude that today WILL be better.

Lots of people wouldn't let what others say bother them but unfortunately I take things to heart very easily. I am a very sensitive person and when people treat me badly, I start feeling as though they are right and that I deserve it. I guess it is all to do with the lack of self respect and confidence that I have always had for myself which is also related to my anorexia. As I recover I want to learn to love myself for who I am and I know that this will require me to stop letting others bring me down and make me feel bad about myself. I wish I wasn't as sensitive to what others say but I also can't help the way I feel.

Does anybody have any advice about how to ignore hurtful comments instead of taking them to heart?