Its 5:20am and im laying in my new bed in my new room unable to sleep. After an incredibly long and tiring day yesterday filled with packing, cleaning, moving and driving, I slept really well for the first half of the night. However now I am feeling wide awake and sleep feels like an very far off thing. So I thought I may as well use this time to write a quick post and update you all on how things are going.
I If I have learnt anything through being sick, its that life is way too short to spend time unhappy of you dont need to be. To me, being happy is more important then having any particular type of career or heaps of money. That is why, after leaving my job and home behind in Swansea, and even my family and friends, I dont feel any regrets. Because now I can spend more time with the guy that I love and who makes me happier then anyone else makes me.
I have decided to apply to university in a Bachelor if Health science at university as that is available with mid year entry and I can already see that the course is well suited to me. I like the sound of all the units and am looking forward to once again studying these subjects that I am so passionate about and interested in. Last time I was at university, I wasnt in a good headspace at all. My anxiety was at an all time high (although I refused to take medication for it) and I was very underweight. This time I feel ready to get back into uni and im sure with the support of my wonderful boyfriend, I will be fine.
Showing posts with label Independant. Show all posts
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Monday, 28 March 2016
Wednesday, 10 June 2015
Miss independent
Due to the strained relationship my mum and I have had over the years, I have grown up to be a lot more independent then my siblings which I am really happy about. I absolutely love doing things for myself and being independent, as it allows me to feel more proud of my achievements. This also means that I dont ever feel as though I owe anyone anything, as everything good in my life I have worked really hard for myself, I havent just had it handed to me by someone else.
A big part of being independent for me is being financially independent. When I went to live in Hobart so that I could go to university, I paid for everything myself. I bought my own text books, paid my rent and bought my own food. I bought both my first and second car and have paid for all of my medication, food, toiletries, phone bill and clothes for as long as I can remember.
Although I sometimes feel a bit upset that my parents (mainly my mum) have helped me out less financially then my brothers, this also makes me appreciate everything I own, as I have bought it myself with money I have worked hard for. In fact, if my parents ever offered to give me money, I would not accept it as I would rather just financially support myself.
My mum always expected more of me then my brothers. For example I was expected to do things like make my bed, while they never have been. I have also always been expected to buy my own clothes if I ever needed them, while my mum still buys colthes for my brothers now, even though they are both adults.Both of my brothers still bring their dirty clothes home to her every weekend which she washes, dries and irons for them and they still dont clean up after themselves, as mum has always just done it for them.
While I have been relatively independent for years, I have only become completely independent since moving out of home and I have absolutely thrived since then. I love doing everything for myself and knowing that I dont rely on anyone else for anything. Even tbough moving out was expensive and I do struggle financially sometimes, I am still managing relatively well and feel proud of the fact thatI am making it on my own.
I love being so independent and I honestly would never have it any other way. Something I do need to get better at is asking for help when I do need it, as I know that there is nothing wrong with doing that either. I need to try and remember that asking for help when you need it does not make you weak, it just makes you sensible.
One day I plan to raise my children exactly the same way as I have been raised. I want them to learn to be independet from a young age, so that they can look after themselves better when they get older and do not rely on others to do everything for them, all the time. I think that this type of independence also teaches a person a good sence of responsibility, which is also very important in life.
I think that being a strong and idependent person has helped me a lot in my recovery so far. An important thing to remember about recovery is that no one can make you recover, unfortunatly you need to do all of the hard work yourself. Since I am so used to doing everything myself anyway, I have taken on the responsibility of getting better, once I decided that I wanted too, really well.
A big part of being independent for me is being financially independent. When I went to live in Hobart so that I could go to university, I paid for everything myself. I bought my own text books, paid my rent and bought my own food. I bought both my first and second car and have paid for all of my medication, food, toiletries, phone bill and clothes for as long as I can remember.
Although I sometimes feel a bit upset that my parents (mainly my mum) have helped me out less financially then my brothers, this also makes me appreciate everything I own, as I have bought it myself with money I have worked hard for. In fact, if my parents ever offered to give me money, I would not accept it as I would rather just financially support myself.
My mum always expected more of me then my brothers. For example I was expected to do things like make my bed, while they never have been. I have also always been expected to buy my own clothes if I ever needed them, while my mum still buys colthes for my brothers now, even though they are both adults.Both of my brothers still bring their dirty clothes home to her every weekend which she washes, dries and irons for them and they still dont clean up after themselves, as mum has always just done it for them.
While I have been relatively independent for years, I have only become completely independent since moving out of home and I have absolutely thrived since then. I love doing everything for myself and knowing that I dont rely on anyone else for anything. Even tbough moving out was expensive and I do struggle financially sometimes, I am still managing relatively well and feel proud of the fact thatI am making it on my own.
I love being so independent and I honestly would never have it any other way. Something I do need to get better at is asking for help when I do need it, as I know that there is nothing wrong with doing that either. I need to try and remember that asking for help when you need it does not make you weak, it just makes you sensible.
One day I plan to raise my children exactly the same way as I have been raised. I want them to learn to be independet from a young age, so that they can look after themselves better when they get older and do not rely on others to do everything for them, all the time. I think that this type of independence also teaches a person a good sence of responsibility, which is also very important in life.
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