This morning I need to go to the bank and withdraw some money as today I am getting a new car. I needed a new car as my current car isnt very reliable and I spend over an hour travelling each day that I work at the bank. I also need to organise some car insurance while I am at the bank. Now I am an adult living out on my own, there always seems to be so much you need to think of but I believe that being completely independent is one of the best feelings. Afterall, I know that my family are still there for advice if I ever do need them.
I have a lot of house work that I will need to do today. I really do hate mess so it has been difficult for me the last few days as my house has been very untidy but I havent had the time to clean it. My bags that I bought home from Launceston last Friday night are still on my loungeroom floor and every table and bench top seems to be covered in clutter. I will be much happier once I can get the house back in order as well as vacuuming the floor.
While I didnt really realise it at the time, walking Tess for a minimum of 1 hour every day was just listening to my anorexia. I was using walking Tess an a excuse or way to justify exercising but even she didnt need that much exercise. Luckily I relised this and I have now cut her walks done down to a 15 minute walk of a morning and a 20 minute walk each afternoon (so I have almost cut my walking time in half each day). Is my anorexia angry? Yes of course. Am I going to restrict my food to make up for it? DEFINETELY NOT! This is just another opportunity for me to fight my anorexia and make it weaker and me stronger.
I hope that everyone else has a great day. :) And to all those in recovery remember to keep on fighting, you ARE strong enough to do it! <3
That's a fantastic realisation about the walking, you should be so proud of yourself for being able to realise that you shouldn't be walking so much, and be even prouder of yourself for actually taking action and cutting down your 2.5 hour walks to 15/20 minutes.Keep up the fantastic work recovery warrior! You're doing amazingly! X
ReplyDeleteThanks so much. <3
DeleteI think you may have must have understood me as I was walking for 1 hour per day and not 2.5 hours. But even 1 hour is too much while in recovery and I am glad I came to this realisation too.
Stay strong and keep fighting. :) x
Ooops sorry I read two half hour walks as two and a half hours argh my brain isn't functioning tonight! Thank you, stay strong too! X
Delete