A delicious dinner to end a bad day

While being at work did distract me a little from my anorexic thoughts, it was still a relatively hard day for me. Despite the constant conflict that was going on in my head, I still ate each and every one of my meals, just as I promised myself I would. I am proud of myself for getting through the day today and not giving into my anorexia, no matter how anxious and guilty it made me feel.

When I got home from work I cooked myself a very simple but also very delcious tea. I cooked myself 2 fish cakes (that I bought frozen), mashed potato, corn, peas and carrots.

I havent eaten fish cakes since before I got anorexia but I really enjoyed them tonight. While I never get sick of any of my snacks or other main meals, sometimes I really cant get motivated to cook tea. Sometimes I dont know what I feel like and other times I simply dont feel like cooking. I grew up eating meat and vegetables every single night of the week so I do enjoy eating more interesting foods sometimes but sometimes I think it is better to just try and keep it simple.

After tea I cleaned up and took Tess for a really quick walk in the dark as she had been tied up outside to her kennel all day while I was at work. When I got back from my walk I had some dessert which was chocolate self saucing pudding heated up in the microwave and topped with vanilla icecream. 

It was delicious but I really dont think I will feel like having a hot chocolate before bed, as dessert was so sweet. I may have some fruit instead (of course I will make sure the fruit I have contains approximately the same amount of energy as the hot chocolate would have).

I have the weekend off which is fantastic but I really hope I feel a little better tomorrow then I have today. While I know it is important for me to rest, I think I will have to try and keep myself relatively busy so that I can distract myself from my anorexic thoughts. I will hopefully go and visit my dad as I feel as though we havent spent enough time together lately. I will also see if my sister Amy wants to come and keep me company for a few hours tomorrow. I hope that everyone has had/ is having a good day today and that you have a wonderful weekend planned. :)