Feeling like a normal girl

Today has been a really good day. I have felt almost normal today and have manged to forget that I am in fact recovering from an eating disorder which I think is fantastic! Sometimes, it is just so nice to be ale to compltely forget about your worries and to just feel like a normal 20 year old girl. I suppose that this just shows how much I have improved since the time when my my anorexia was controlling most of my thoughts. Now I can go a whole day with only an occasional anorexic thought or feeling. Realising how far I have come gives me hope that I can make the progress I need to make in the future in order to recover.

I took Tess for a walk this morning to the beach and although it had been quite windy it was not as cold as it has been over the past few weeks which is good. I am hoping that this slightly warmer weather is a sign that the coldest part of winter has now passed. I really enjoyed my morning prior to going to work. I replied to some emails, wrote some blog posts and watched some 'Harte of Dixie'. Something else I was happy about was that I reached 20 000 pageviews. I know that this may not seem like many pageviews  to some people who blog however I am delighted to know that I have had this many pageviews and this makes me want to thank everyone who reads my blog.

As soon as I got to work at 9:30 I had an assesment for my traineeship that went really well. My accessor was really happy with how organised and prepared I was and said that my work was of a very high stadard which was great to hear and gave me the confidence boost I needed. Since my coworker has not been very nice to me over the last few weeks I was starting to doubt myself and feel as though I was not good enough but after my assesment I felt great! I started believing that I am good enough again and I think that this was reflected in my work performance today.

I got lots of work done and am going to try my hardest not to let the way my co-worker treats me in the future determine the confidence I have in myself and my abilities. After work I took Tess for a quick walk to the shop where I caught up with my mum. When I got home I cooked myself rice and veetables for tea and then had a shower and wached masterchef while I ate my dessert. I hope that everyone has a fantastic day/night. <3 x  I am struggling to keep my eyes open at the moment so will most likely have an early night again.