My doctors appointment

My doctors appointment went really well! My doctor was delighted when she weighed me and saw that I have gained so much weight. My GP hasnt been able to help me a lot in my actual anorexia recovery but she has always tried to keep a close check on me to make sure I was medically stable by weighing me, doing blood tests and helping me to treat my skin. She has given me an acne ointment that I have found really helpful in the past as well as two types of antibiotics. One to treat my current infection and another preventative antibiotic that I can take to try and prevent my infections from happening in the first place. I also got a doctors certificate so that I was allowed the day off work.

My doctor made the comment that I was only 1 kilogram off off being x kilograms, which is the weight she initially said that I needed to reach but I didnt tell her that I am planning to gain weight beyond that weight. It is very hard for me to continue gaining weight, especially since my doctor has basically said I dont need to. My anorexia hates the fact that I am choosing to gain more weight 'unneccesarily' but I know that it is the right thing to do.  Deep down I know that my natural set point is more than the weight my doctor has told me so I dont want to stop before I feel as though I am properly weight restored. I want to learn to love my body the way it is naturally supposed to be, so that I can be truly happy and healthy.

As usual I was in chatting to my doctor for 45 minutes instead of the 15 minutes I was supposed to be. She knows all about my mum so I talked to her for a long time about that which I found really helpful. Although I appreciate her kindness I am sure that the people in the waiting room were not impressed at all for having to wait so long. I went to the pharmacy on the way home to pick up all of my prescriptions before coming home to make myself some lunch. For lunch I had a small tin of cheesy spaghetti on buttered toast, an apple and a mini custard tart which was a nice change. I think mum is calling in this afternoon to visit me and see how I am going.

I hope everyone is having a good day! :)