Tuesday
Meal 1: 1 large bowl of raspberry oats (equivalent to 2 typical portions) made with half a cup of soy milk, 1 cup if water and 1 scoop of protein powderMeal 2: 1 vanilla and banana shake made with 1 banana, 250mL soy milk, 2 scoops of herbalife vanilla sport f1 shake mix and 8 ice cubes
Meal 3: 3 rice cakes topped with tomato and cheese, 3 rice cakes topped with egg (1 boiled egg mixed with mayo), 1 apple, 1 strawberry Chobani greek yoghurt
Meal 4: 1 herbalife protein bar and 1 banana
Meal 5: went out for dinner and ordered chicken schnitzel with gravy and vegetables
Meal 6: 1 yoplait forme yoghurt and 1 peach
Wednesday
Meal 1: 1 large bowl of oats (equivalent to 2 typical portions) made with half a cup of soy milk, 1 cup if water and 1 scoop of protein powder with 1 diced pear
Meal 2: 1 herbalife chocolate shake made with 1 scoop of dutch chocolate f1, 1 scoop if creamy vanilla sport f1 and 300mL almond milk
Meal 3: vegetable lasagna and salad (lettuce leaf mix, diced beetroot, cherry tomatoes, fetta cheese, olive oil)
Meal 4: 1 tub of chobani plain greek yoghurt mixed with 1 scoop of herbalife chocolate rebuild and blueberries (picture below)
Meal 5: 3 scrambled eggs cooked with 1 diced tomato and 60g of feta cheese with vegetables (baby broccoli, beans, pumpkin and carrot)
Meal 6: herbalife protein bar, watermelon and salt and vinegar rice wheels
Thursday
Meal 1: 1 chocolate and banana shake made with 1 banana, 250mL soy milk, 2 scoops of herbalife f1 dutch chocolate shake mix and 8 ice cubesMeal 2: 1 large bowl of oats (equivalent to 2 typical portions) made with half a cup of soy milk, 1 cup if milk and 1 scoop of protein powder
Meal 3: 3 rice cakes topped with tomato and cheese, 3 rice cakes topped with egg (1 boiled egg mixed with mayo), 1 yoplait forme berry yoghurt, watermelon and 2 pieces of herbalife chocolate
Meal 4: 1 small packet of salted popcorn, 1 protein bar and grapes
Meal 5: honey soy chicken stirfry with hokkien noodles and vegetables (broccoli, carrot, beans)
Meal 6: Herbalife mug cake made with 2 scoops of chocolate f1 mix, 1 scoop of protein powder, 1 egg and 1/4 cup of milk microwaved and topped with greek yoghurt
Throughout the day I also snack on little things spontaeously like herbalife chocolate, grapes, rice cakes etc as I am walking through the kitchen (i.e. I have eaten 14 pieces of herbalife chocolate (which is actually higher calorie then normal chocolate) over the last 4 days. I drink atleast 2.5 litres of water per day which I add herbalife products to like Aloe, herbal tea, active fibre complex, hydrate or drive. I also take quite a few supplements as part of my nutrition program (i.e. 3 multivitamins, 3 cell-U-loss, 2 joint support, 1 chitosan fibre, 1 probiotic, 2 NRG's).
I currently have the best relationship with food I have ever had and I couldnt be happier. I no longer take anti anxiety medication and just feel so wonderful everyday, knowing that I am fueling my body with delicious and nutricious foods. In order to recover, you need to have a good relationship with food and you must be able to trust your body to tell you what it needs. Food is not something you should ever be scaredbof, it is simple fuel for your body and something that should be enjoyed. If you have any questions about my intake, feel free to leave a comment below.
How can you consider yourself recovered if you still count exact calories everyday and eat the same kinds of foods most of the time, which are almost always obsessively healthy??
ReplyDeleteI dont count exact calories, after years of practice counting calories i cant help but know around how many calories are in what i eat. And i dont eat the exact same amount everyday, just atleast a certain amount (as otherwise i find i accidently lose weight). I admit I eat healthily but this does not indicate I am not recovered, i just eat healthily because I enjoy eating those foods more than others and they make me feel great. I dont see the point in eating lots of unhealthy foods just to prove some kind of point that I am recovered, when I dont like those foods and they dont provide my body with any nutrients, so reave me feeling sluggish and lethargic. And eating the same kinds of things just shows that I enjoy those foods. I am not frightened about eating other foods and I eat them if I ever feel like them!
Delete"I count exactly the same amount of calories every day but I know about what I eat and I never eat any less then 2200 calories."
DeleteYou said that at the very start of your post, and now say you don't count your calories precisely? A little contradicting. I think the fact alone that you still label foods as unhealthy, is a sign you are not recovered. You still eat quite regimentedly, there seems to be lack of freedom in your diet.. In recovery you shouldn't have to count anything, you should eat exactly what you want when you want it and should stop weighing yourself completely. Weight will go up and down by a few kg all through the year, sometimes it will go down when your appetite drops but your body will make up for it by making you hungrier afterwards. That is what normal eating is; do you do that?
But if you are happy in quasi recovery, then that is up to you.
Sorry... your right. This is a typo. It was supposed to be *i dont count..... i am sorry but some foods are unhealthy. Believing this does not mean I am not recovered.... it just means that I am realistic. I really dont know why you are trying so hard to pick a part my post and why you want me to admit that I am not recovered... will that somehow make you happy? All that matters is what I believe and feel and I know in my heart what my situation is! To me... eating unhealthy foods that i dont even enjoy to just to prove some kind of point and never weighing myself or knowing how much I weigh is not normal behaviour. I have a great relationship with food now and I refuse to justify myself to you any more.
DeleteYou said in a number of your other posts that you eat unhealthier foods more often now because they are what you enjoy and you missed them during your eating disorder. And now you say you don't enjoy them? Is that you or the eating disorder saying you don't like them anymore - why? Because you are at the minimum healthy weight now and no longer want to be gaining much?
DeleteLike I said, as long as you believe your recovered then thats fine. Do what you like, but don't go preaching to young people who are easily influenced that once your at a healthy weight its perfectly acceptable to jump into some gimicky health regime.
I still do eat treat foods like chocolate, icecream and chips if I ever feel like them but I just dont feel like them that often. I emjoyed earing those types of foods daily in recovery but now I just don't teally crave them. Peoples tastes change as mine obviously have. I simply enjoy eating healthy foods more and love knowing I am nourishing my body. Gaining weight does not scare me, in fact I have been eating extra lately to try and gsin a little extra weight. I am not preaching anything. I am just saying that working through the pain amd hatd times of recovery is so worth it, s at the end you will be able to have a great relationship with food, meaning you will be able to eat whatever and whenever you want, which is exactly what I do now!
Deletehey, I decided to do self recovery a few months ago but even weight restored I have no pleasure in food, I am afraid of eating and I count calories (though roughly I don't measure as I feel like I would be becoming obsessive but I can't eat much unhealthy or processed foods or I feel really guilty) and I can't go beyond 1200- am I relapsing or was never mentally recovered? it's been two months and every day I'm fighting like the urge to keep fighting the need to restrict, but am I eating normally? After reading this I feel like I am just stuck and I kinda need like a third person overview? sorry if I'm rambling and thanks for reading :)
ReplyDeleteHey Julia,
DeleteHavingno pleasure in food and lots of guilt sounds as though you aren't mentally recovered even though you may be weight restored. Its so important to remember that anorexia is a mental illness and jot a physical one so our mental state is a much more important indicator of your recovery progress then your weight is. 1200 calories a day definitely is not enough and you will slow down your metabolism/lose weight consistantly only eating this amount. Its so important you fight allnewIf your anorexic thoughts and do the opposite of what t tells you to do as othrwise your anorexia will become stronger again and youmqy relapse (if you havent already). Keep fighting, it is possible to recover but it wont happen whilst you are giving into your anorexic thoughts and eating such small amounts.
One of the things I worry about during recovery is that when I reach a healthy weight I will no longer be able to eat as much as I am now. I am currently enjoying being able to eat so much after restricting for so long and I am scared I won't be able to stop which will cause me to tip towards the other end of the weight spectrum. However, reading your post it is reassuring to see that even with recovery, it is still necessary to eat a fair amount, and hopefully like you, my body will be able to tell me what and how much to have. So thank you for sharing
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