Todays plans

It is almost 7:00 am here in Australia and I have a very busy day planned. After being at the training course all last week and then having to work all weekend at the IGA I feel as though I desperate jusr need a rest day however unfortunately this just isnt going to be possible. There is just too much I need to get done todday before starting another full week of work tomorrow. Perhaps I should just work really hard all morning so that I can get everything finished before this afternoon, so I can relax.

This morning I need to go to the bank and withdraw some money as today I am getting a new car. I needed a new car as my current car isnt very reliable and I spend over an hour travelling each day that I work at the bank. I also need to organise some car insurance while I am at the bank. Now I am an adult living out on my own, there always seems to be so much you need to think of but I believe that being completely independent is one of the best feelings. Afterall, I know that my family are still there for advice if I ever do need them.

I have a lot of house work that I will need to do today. I really do hate mess so it has been difficult for me the last few days as my house has been very untidy but I havent had the time to clean it. My bags that I bought home from Launceston last Friday night are still on my loungeroom floor and every table and bench top seems to be covered in clutter. I will be much happier once I can get the house back in order as well as vacuuming the floor.

As always I will try to get Tess for a couple of little walks today so she can burn off a bit of energy. As a 2 year old Kelpie/Collie X she has ALOT of energy so it simply wouldn't be fair to leave her tied up all day. When I was away last week I obviously didn't have Tess with me so wasn't going for walks and this made me feel very uncomfortable. This showed me that exercise is still a bit of an issue for me as I feel guilty when I dont do it. I have decided to NEVER do any more exercise then I absalutely need to do. Before I went to launceston I was still taking Tess for two half an hour walks every day which I can now see is far too much for me while I am trying to recover.

While I didnt really realise it at the time, walking Tess for a minimum of 1 hour every day was just listening to my anorexia. I was using walking Tess an a excuse or way to justify exercising but even she didnt need that much exercise. Luckily I relised this and I have now cut her walks done down to a 15 minute walk of a morning and a 20 minute walk each afternoon (so I have almost cut my walking time in half each day). Is my anorexia angry? Yes of course. Am I going to restrict my food to make up for it? DEFINETELY NOT! This is just another opportunity for me to fight my anorexia and make it weaker and me stronger.

I hope that everyone else has a great day. :) And to all those in recovery remember to keep on fighting, you ARE strong enough to do it! <3