Feeling exhausted

After feeling energetic and enthusiatic about everything for the last week or so, I feel as though a weeks worth of tiredness has suddenly hit me like a tonne of bricks. After having so many late nights and so many early morning over the last week or so, I guess I shouldnt really be surprised that this has happpened. In fact, it is probably a wonder that I didn't start feeling like this sooner. Now I have hit  this wall of tiredness, I know that I just have to look after myself properly, so that I can quickly overcome it!

It has become clear to me that I cant continue to stay up as late as I have been, if I am going to keep getting up so early every morning. I mean, I didn't get that tired when I used to get up between 5 or 6 each morning when I went to sleep really early each night. However now I find that I stay up really late each night, sometimes as late as midnight talking to people and I therefore just am not geting enough sleep each night.

It is a really good thing that I am socialising so much now, as I really do enjoy it! And I feel as though I am truly living my life, the way that a 21 year old should but I also liike having lots of time in the mornings to get things done too. I love having enough time to have a nice breakfast, walk Tess and write a blog post before I have to be at work! So I don't know exactly where Iam ging to fit more sleep in but I know Icant keep burning the candle at both ends like I currently am.

Luckily, I managed to completely fight off the virus that I could feel myself developing before it really hit which is definetely a huge bonus but now I am just feeling tired and drained. I guess that drinking heaps of water, Eating lots of kiwi fruit (which are incredibly high in vitamin c) and also just keeping my energy up with lots of food, my immune system has just managed to fight off my cold, before it really set in :)

I didnt even have enough energy to walk Tess when I got home late from work today so I just cooked tea and relaxed instead. I felt bad, as I could hear Tess crying outside, wanting me to walk her but I already took her for a long walk this morning and sometimes I just need to put my health first. Afterall, I know that to keep moving forward in my recovery, I need to keep listening to my body. Which doesnt only mean eating according to how I feel, but also resting sometimes too.

Besides Taking Tess for a couple of nice walks tomorrow, I plan on just relaxing for the rest of the day. It has been so long since I have just watched series for a day and I feel as though that is exactly what I need! I hope that everyone is having a great week. :D

Super busy day

Today certainly has been very busy and I feel as though I haven't stopped since I got up early this morning. After eating breakfast I took Tess for a long walk, put my wet washing out on the clothes line and got ready for work as I had to start at 8:30. I have been on my feet running around after customers all day and in my short lunch break I only had enough time to get myself some lunch which I ate while writing a blog post.

The afternoon went quite fast although quite a bit of chocolate and lollies were eaten to get me through to knock off time. My final job at work was sweeping the entire floor of the shop which is actually quite tiring and time consuming. As soon as I knocked off work at 4:30, I came home but had lots of jobs to do. 

I had to get my washing in off the clothes line, do the washing up, put clothes away and start tidying my house as I am not going to get a chance to do it any time soon as I am back to working at the bank tomorrow. I quickly did a bit of revision as I am doing an assesment for my traineeship tomorrow which I hope I go ok in but I really don't have heaps of time to put into that so I am hoping that all of the work I have allready done is enough. 

Then I prepared my tea which is currently cooking now as I write this post. I am just having a piece of crumbed chicken as well as 3 tempura chicken Nuggets, Caulliflower Broccoli, carrot and mashed potato with BBQ sauce (I will add a photo to the bottom of this post once it is ready). It feels good to be finally sitting down however I still need to take Tess for a walk after tea and also have a shower. 

Although I am feeling quite tired, I am still looking forward to taking Tess for a nice walk on the beach as it is a gorgeous evening and I hated being stuck inside all day at work while everyone else enjoyed the beautiful weather. As you can see, today has been really full on so I am sure I will sleep well tonight, especially after not getting very much sleep last night.

I hope that everyone had a fantastic weekend :)

Still smiling, even though I am exhausted :)

My Yummy Tea 

Completely exhausted

I though I was coping ok with being so busy lately but over the last few days, the exhaustion really has hit me like a tonne of bricks. I feel a bit like a zombie and even though I am getting lots of sleep each night, it really seems to be making no difference at all. Yesterday was my worst day of all and I actually felt as though I was going to fall asleep while driving to work yesterday morning. My boss noticed how low I seemed and asked me if everything was ok. I assured her that I am fine and that I am just tired (which is the truth).

Along with the exhaustion, I have also been getting headaches which is quite unlike me so it is possible that I may have become iron defficient. This is something that has happened to me in the past and has caused me to feel the same way that Iam currently feeling before so perhaps I should get a blood test and get it checked out. It is really starnge that I commonly get iron defficient as my dad has the complete opposite disorder whereby his body absorbs too much iron which leaves him feeling exhausted and drained too.

I have the day off tomorrow (thankgod) so I am going to make the most of it and try and rest as much as possible. I think that my mind and body really just need a day of proper rest so that I can re-energise and get back to being my cheerful and happy self. Even though I am physically and mentally so much better now, I still have to remember that I have put my body and mind through a lot over the past few years and it is therefore no surprise that I can get run down every now and then. I suppose that feeling exhausted and unwell is just my bodies way of telling me tthat I have to slow down and take it easy for a while.

And I also have to remember that I am still in recovery and that recovery uses extra energy too. Not only for physical repair but also in orderfor me to keep battling my anorexia mentally too. Although my anorexia is becoming a smaller part of my life every single day,  to keep on fighting continuously does wear you out eventually. All I can do is try and listen to my body as much as I possibely can and to look after myself my providing my body with all of the energy and rest it needs.

Need to normalise my body clock

You know your body clock is way out of sync when you are waking at 11:50 pm and feeling as though you are ready to start another day And the last one has not even ended yet. I have suffered from insomnia from time to time throughout my illness but my sleeping patterns just seem to be getting worse and worse.

I just feel so exhausted each night that I cant keeep my eyes open after 8:00-8:30, but then I am waking up incredibely early after getting between 6 and 8 hours sleep, wide awake. I know that if Istayed up later of a night, I would find it a lot easier to sleep later each morning but I just feel so exhausted each night, that I could literally fall asleep while standing up. No matter what I watch on TV, I fall asleep and I even fall asleep while blogging.

I suppose it is to be expected that I am so tired each night. Afterall my body is working very hard to repair and recover. Also the psychological stress od recovery is very tiring as well however I do feel as though putting my body clock back in sync would help with this tiredness a lot. If I got up at 6 each morning instead of 4, I would probably be able to stay awake until 10:000-10:30 instead of falling asleep at 8:00-8:30.

Since I have the day off today, I think I will try and have a decent nap half way through the day so that I feel energized enough to stay up a little later tonight. Hopefully If I stay up to 10:00pm or something like that, I will be able to sleep later the following morning. If I do wake up early still, I will make myself stay in bed and NOT turn on my tablet or phone, which is something I am often guilty of doing (hence why it is 12:52am, I have been asleep for 3 hours already tonight but now I am writing a blog post).    

Does anybody have any tips for me about getting a normal sleeping routine in place. I find that my life is so busy with work, my recovery and everything else that I just cant afford to be so tired and exhhausted all the time. Ok, I am off to bed to try and get some more sleep. Goodnight! xx

Feeling extremely exhausted

I wish I could say I got everything done today that I had planned on doing but unfortunately this is not the case. At about 8:00am I got a phone call from one of the people I work with asking if I could work for her as her daughter was sick. Even though I was incredibly disappointed to get this call, of course I agreed as I knew it was the right thing to do.

I was already so stressed about everything I had to do today but now I feel even more stressed as I still havent got anything done. I am feeling pretty exhausted from all the work I have been doing lately but luckily I managed to get through the day today. Atleast my boss has said I can have the day off tomorrow instead, so hopefully I can spend some time just relaxing then.

I have an awful skin infection on my face that started from a single spot getting infected. The infection has spread under my skin so my whole forehead is very red and sore and I am currently on antibiotics. This is just another indicator of how much I need a rest day as this usually happens to me when I get really run down as my immune system crashes.

I am already exhausted but I think I will spend an hour or so tidying up the house tonight so all I will need to do tomorrow is vacuum the floor and wash some clothes. Hopefully then I will just be able to relax for the rest of the day. I think a day on the couch watching tv and blogging is exactly what I need.

When I got home from work tonight the people I was buying my car off of called in to deliver the car. I am excited to have a new car and also proud because I am paying for it all by myself with money I have worked really hard for. I plan to take my new car on its first drive to my parents house tomorrow sometime so that I can show my dad. 

Tea tonight: beef ravioli in sundried tomato and parmesan cheese sauce with veggies