Miss independent

Due to the strained relationship my mum and I have had over the years, I have grown up to be a lot more independent then my siblings which I am really happy about. I absolutely love doing things for myself and being independent, as it allows me to feel more proud of my achievements. This also means that I dont ever feel as though I owe anyone anything, as everything good in my life I have worked really hard for myself, I havent just had it handed to me by someone else.

A big part of being independent for me is being financially independent. When I went to live in Hobart so that I could go to university, I paid for everything myself. I bought my own text books, paid my rent and bought my own food. I bought both my first and second car and have paid for all of my medication, food, toiletries, phone bill and clothes for as long as I can remember.

Although I sometimes feel a bit upset that my parents (mainly my mum) have helped me out less financially then my brothers, this also makes me appreciate everything I own, as I have bought it myself with money I have worked hard for. In fact, if my parents ever offered to give me money, I would not accept it as I would rather just financially support myself.

My mum always expected more of me then my brothers. For example I was expected to do things like make my bed, while they never have been. I have also always been expected to buy my own clothes if I ever needed them, while my mum still buys colthes for my brothers now, even though they are both adults.Both of my brothers still bring their dirty clothes home to her every weekend which she washes, dries and irons for them and they still dont clean up after themselves, as mum has always just done it for them.

While I have been relatively independent for years, I have only become completely independent since moving out of home and I have absolutely thrived since then. I love doing everything for myself and knowing that I dont rely on anyone else for anything. Even tbough moving out was expensive and I do struggle financially sometimes, I am still managing relatively well and feel proud of the fact thatI am making it on my own.

I love being so independent and I honestly would never have it any other way. Something I do need to get better at is asking for help when I do need it, as I know that there is nothing wrong with doing that either. I need to try and remember that asking for help when you need it does not make you weak, it just makes you sensible.

One day I plan to raise my children exactly the same way as I have been raised. I want them to learn to be independet from a young age, so that they can look after themselves better when they get older and do not rely on others to do everything for them, all the time. I think that this type of independence also teaches a person a good sence of responsibility, which is also very important in life.

I think that being a strong and idependent person has helped me a lot in my recovery so far. An important thing to remember about recovery is that no one can make you recover, unfortunatly you need to do all of the hard work yourself. Since I am so used to doing everything myself anyway, I have taken on the responsibility of getting better, once I decided that I wanted too, really well.

10 Random facts about me

1. I love wearing onesies and they are my favourite item of clothing! They are so comfortable and warm and if it was up to me, I would wear one all day, everyday. My favourite onesie is my fluffy pink snoopy onesie!

2. I use to love swimming and trained all the time but I had to give it up as my collar bone began dislocating every time I lifted my arm above my head. I went to a few specialists and they had never seen anything like it before. My brother also has the same rare condition so it is obviously genetic. Now I have given up swimming, my collar bone doesn't dislocate anywhere near as often but on average it would still happen a few times per day.




3. I have never travelled outside of Australia. I have done lots of travelling within Australia but have never gone overseas. I don't mind that I haven't left Australia yet as I feel as though it is important for you to explore what your own country has to offer before exploring other countries. I would definetely like to travel overseas in the future though. I am interested in travellling to Europe although it is very expensive.

4. While I have good vision when reading things that are close to me, from a distance I am as blind as a bat. Without my glasses I cant even watch tv clearly, read the time on a clock that is up on the wall, recognise people until they are right next to me or read road signs while driving.

5. I really want to have kids when I am older and this is another reason I want to make a full recovery from my Anorexia. If for any reason I couldn't have kids naturally, I have already decided that I would either adopt or look for another option as I want to have them so badly. My favourite girls name is Olivia Grace and my favourite boys name is Riley Michael (Michael is my dads name)

6. Growing up I was a huge tomboy as I would spend all my free time with my brothers on the farm. Ienjoyed activities like fishing, motor bike riding, shooting and even kicking the football with my brothers (FYI Aussie rules football is typically a sport played by boys).

7.  Despite being a tomboy when I was growing up, I absolutely love the colour pink. If I ever see anything Pink, I instantly want it weather I need it or not. I have a pink keyboard, pink cutlery, pink kitchen/bathroom scales, a pink milkshake maker, Pink bed sheets, a pink iron. Even my can opener and chopping board is pink. Anyway, I think you get the picture, I like pink ;).

8. Something I really cant stand is bubblegum. I hate the smell of it and watching people chew on it. I feel like vomiting when I see people blowing bubbles or 'playing' with their bubblegum. I don't know where this dislike came from because I remember chewing bubblegum when I was a really little kid but now I really can't stand it. I would actually go as far as saying I have a real phobia of it.

9. Although I don't seem to have a lot of time for reading these days, one of my favourite authors is Jodi Picoult. I think her writing is truly amazing and I love the style she writes in. My favourite books that she has written are My Sisters Keeper, handle with Care and the Pact. I love the fact that you can never predict the ending of her stories. Even when you are familiar with her writing and know something unexpeccted will happen, you still can't guess how her stories will end.

10. Unlike most girls, I do not dream about having a big white wedding. In fact, I have very little interest in ever getting married at all. The only reason I would get married is if my future boyfriend really wanted to. I honestly think that getting married is just a waste of money. I may change my mind but this is just how I feel now. I think another reason I dont want to get married is because I have always hated getting dressed up and being the centre of attention.