Yesterday morning I went to make my usual bowl of oats to have with my toast but I was really dissappointed to find that the milk had expired and I couldn't use it. I decided to make my oats with water instead of milk as this is always how I used to eat then whilst I was sick and I was shocked by just how awful they tasted. They were testeless and also had a awful consistency, which reminded me a bit of clag glue. Even when I added some extra berries to try and make them a bit more flavoursome, they still tasted awful. So never again will I be eating oats prepared with water, as they really are gross!
Once again, looking back I still can't believe that I ate those awful oats so much when I was sick and am so glad that I put other things before calories when making food choices now, like what I feel like and enjoy most. Every food option I ever made was based upon number of calories and fat content once, but now none of them are and it feels great. I know now that I dont have to choose salad with dressing on the side everytime I go out to a restaurant and instead I can order something I love like chicken schnitzel with chips and salad or even a ceasar salad.
So please, dont waste any more of your life eating the 'safe' option if there are other things that you could be eating and that you enjoy much more. Once you make the change and start eating the foods that you truy love, instead of just the things that your norexia makes you eat, I assure you that you will have a much better relationshipp with food and it will makee you feel great! There is nothing wrong with treating yourself to foods you love or making your food taste better by adding things like milk, oil, sauce or sugar. Yes, this may add some calories but those calories cant hurt you and it is well worth it if it means you will enjoy your food even more!