The hardest thing about gaining weight early on in your recovery is that your mind is still extremely unhealthy and you therefore get lots of anorexic thoughts in regards of weight gain. It would be so much easier if your mind could start to recover before you start to gain weight but unfortunatly this is not the case. Your mind si ply wont start torecover u til aftr you start togain weight which is why it feels so impossible.
But you just need to trust me when I say that it IS possible, and that you CAN do it! You just have to believe that recovery is possible and that you are strong enough to do it because you are! Just remember that even if you are finding gaining weight hard, when your mind eventually starts to repair and catch up with your physical recovery, it is possible for you to accept your body at a healthy weight.
I remember sitting with my GP when I was about 10 kilograms underweight and having her tell me that I needed to get to a weight of 50kg. I remember telling her I would try to do it but actually thinking to myself that I would never let myself weight that much. Now however I weigh more then that amount and I like my body more now then I ever have in my life. I know that I am no longer super skinny but I am fit and healthy and that is even better! There is nothing wrong with having some fat on your body, in fact it is healthy to be this way!
I gained weight really fast (about 100g per day) so eventually I wasnt even that shocked each time I stepped on the scale and could see I had gained weight, it just became the norm. Eventually the fear of gaining weight diminished a little and every day it seemed to get easier. To be honest, my blog and my readers helped me an enormous amount in my recovery and with gaining weight.
Even though gaining weight was painful, I would still feel strangely excited when I saw I had gained weight as i knew I would be able to share my progress on my blog and hopefully inspire others trying to do the same. When I was tempted to stop gaining weight before my bmi was classified as healthy, it is my readers who motivated me to keep going and keep gaining weight until I believed I was a healthy weight.
I realise there are still lots of wonderful questions I have not yet answered in this post but I promise I will answer those in the next few days. I hope that this has been helpful in some way...