Flexibility with food

It is only since I have made so much recovery progress that I have become more flexible in terms of my meal times and eating. Even though this may seem like a very small thing, I believe it is very important as life should not revolve around eating 6 meals at the exact same time every single day or eating a certain number of calories.

Dont get me wrong, I dont think following a strict meal plan with specific meal times in the early stages of recovery is a bad thing. In fact, I found that doing this was incredibely helpful amd helped me to get stronger and fight my anorexia. Now however I really enjoy having more flexibility when it comes to meal times. 

Once I would have never done anything if it would interfere with my eating or meal times which led to me missing out on many opportunities. Tonight when my cousin came and asked what I was up to when I finished work, I told her that I was going to go home, have tea and then take Tess for a walk. She asked if I instead wanted to take Tess for a walk first, with her as she was walking her dog.

My first thought was that I couldn't because I had to go home and have tea but then I realised that I wasn't even hungry yet and that I would much rather go for a walk with company. So I decided to walk Tess first,with my cousin and her dog which just meant having tea and the also dessert an hour or so later.

While eating is always incredibly important for those who are recovering from or who have recovered from anorexia, life shouldn't revolve around food. As the saying goes, you should eat so that you can live, not live so you can eat. My life really has revolved around food, weight and calories for the past 3 years and I am so glad that I am no longer living like this.

Tea: chicken carbonara pasta with LOTS of veggies

Dessert: banana and chocolate pop tart (I had never tried the chocolate flavoured pop tarts before and I thought they were amazing. I love how they were sticky and moist inside like a brownie)