You need to truly want it

I have been asked by one of the wonderful friends I have met through blogging if I could offer some advice on 'making youself do it' in terms of eating, gaining weight and fighting your anorexia. It is only since the time when I started my blog that I have made so much true recovery progress, before then I as just the same as you. I would make plans to try and recover but I never followed through and actually did what it takes to hpgain the weight I needed to gain.

I dont know why it happens, and I dont know how it happens but I honestly believe that there is a defining moment in anyones recovery, when true recovery actually becomes possible. Before this happens, it is of course still worth trying your hardest to make progress however chances are, you wont make big recovery progress until that part of you clicks, and you finally want recovery more then you want your illness.

Dont get me wrong, making recovery progress on your own is incredibely hard but before you actually truly want to gain weight and get better, you probably wont be able to. Otherwise everytime the opportunity arises for you to fight your anorexia, if you dont truly beleve in what you are doing, you wo t go aganst your anorexia. You wont put up with the screaming voice in your head telling you that you have done the wrong thing, instead you will listen to your anorexia and let it win.

Just wishing you didnt have your illness does not mean you truly want to recover. Truly wanting to recover means actually wanting to gain weight and wanting to live a life, you know you cant have whilst you have anorexia. To put things into perspective, I suggest that you make a pro's and con's list of recovery vs anorexia ad I think you will realise that you really do have many wonderful reasons to truly want recovery.

Pro's of....

Anorexia: I actually cant think of one right now, once I would have probably said being bautiful and having control but I know now that neither of these are even true. You are neither of these things when you are anorexic.

Recovered: happy, enjoy life, socialise, enjoy food, healthy, fit and energetic, dont look sick, people dont stare/make comments, family and friends stop worrying, organs get better, better skin, healthier hair and nails, less anxiety, no longer think about food all the time, inspire others to recover,have children one day, live longer.... the list goes on.

If you truly believe that anorexia will give you nothing but misery and hell and that recovering will allow your life to betruly wonderful (which is true), choosing to fight you anorexia, whenever the opportunity arises really does become much easier. For example if your anorexia tells you that you should skip breakfast you can tell yourself, if  want to recover and have a great life (with all the things I listed above), then I need to eat breakfast. If you dont 'truly' want recovery, chances are you will probably fall forwhatever lie your anorexia tells you and you will skip breakfast.

I thinkreading recovery blogs and watching other people truly enjoying life is what inspired me to truly want a recovered life as well. And moving out of home and starting my ownblog were also very important factors too. I hope that this post has been helpful to some of you in some way. I know I have rambled on a bit but these are just my honest thoughts on how important truly wanting recovery is <3