I suffered from insomnia back when I was completely starving myself and trying to lose weight as well as in the more recent past when I was eating quite a bit, but obviously still not enough. The information explains why I am finally starting to sleep better now that I have significantly increased my intake and now that I am providing my body and mind with enough energy to truly repair and recover.
I used to wake up early of a morning (like 2am) with a strange feeling which was a bit like hunger. After waking I could never fall back to sleep until after I had breakfast at at about 5am. I know now that it was my body trying to tell me that it was trying to repair and although I was eating quite a lot at that time, it still needed more energy. Now, I am eating a lot more food so my body can repair properly and I eat something just before going to bed so I no longer wake in the night unable to get back to sleep hungry.
I found the following information from this site really interesting as it kind of explains why I have suffered from insomnia throughout my eating disorder;
I found the following information from this site really interesting as it kind of explains why I have suffered from insomnia throughout my eating disorder;
How Insomnia and Anorexia Come Together
Insomnia involves difficulty falling or staying asleep. It is one of the most common complaints heard by medical professionals. It can come with some serious side effects or it can be a serious side effect of another potential life-threatening condition. Anorexia is an eating disorder in which the patient either severely restricts the intake of food or goes on a binge and then purges himself or herself after the binge. With either method presenting itself, there are dangers involved. Besides noticing extreme weight loss, there are other physical symptoms present and insomnia is at the top of the list. Anorexia and insomnia can take over your life.
How They are Linked
The brain is a complex machine, but it is also very primitive in some of its functions. Some of these mechanisms are activated when the body and brain reach "starvation mode." Finding food becomes the number one priority, everything else falls by the wayside. It even takes priority over sleep; therefore, the body gets less of a chance to do so. Trying to sleep can also be uncomfortable. The body of the anorexic has changed and it might not feel comfortable doing what it did before.
Lion on the Savannah
If you are always hungry, then your body may not be able to think about anything else. Think of it this way: you are a lion on the savannah. You might be asleep, but looking for your next kill, constantly thinking about your next meal. When you are underweight because of the anorexia, your body cannot get proper rest. It is concentrated on finding the next meal. Your body is full of adrenaline, looking for its next fresh kill.
Eat right before bed
A lot of our healing, repair and regeneration takes place while we sleep. It’s like rush hour for building muscle and lean tissue, so eating a healthy snack right before bed ensures a fresh supply of nutrients that are available to “go to work” inside the body. A great option that won't leave you feeling stuffed might be a small bowl of pasta saladmade with 100 percent whole-grain pasta (wheat or a gluten-free alternative), vinaigrette made with extra-virgin olive oil, chopped or shredded veggies, and a lean protein such as beans, chopped chicken breast or an organic crumbled cheese.
A lot of our healing, repair and regeneration takes place while we sleep. It’s like rush hour for building muscle and lean tissue, so eating a healthy snack right before bed ensures a fresh supply of nutrients that are available to “go to work” inside the body. A great option that won't leave you feeling stuffed might be a small bowl of pasta saladmade with 100 percent whole-grain pasta (wheat or a gluten-free alternative), vinaigrette made with extra-virgin olive oil, chopped or shredded veggies, and a lean protein such as beans, chopped chicken breast or an organic crumbled cheese.
So to make sure I have a good nights sleep tonight, I have eaten lots of yummy foods to ensure that I my body has enough energy to get me through the night. I try to eat nice balanced meals so that I am providing my body with all of the nutrients it needs. These photos are of my Tea and dessert tonight :)
Cheesy beef lasagna with corn, carrot and peas |
Hot lemon pudding with vanilla icecream |
I've battled with anorexia and bulimia for 21 yrs. Any residential treatment program can give the necessary tools to fight, but the war within my soul has left me broken. I cannot, will not,endure much more
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that you've been struggling for such a long, grueling time.
DeleteMy thorn hasn't been anorexia exactly, but eczema that has worsened and escalated my whole life, almost 3 decades.
I came here because of insomnia, started by horrible itching, but as a result of my days and nights flipped, and little desire to eat and little ability to eat (ive also developed many food allergies), I often go for a week just eating a peach and some almond butter every day, or a couple rice cakes.
I know our struggles are so different, but I just wanted to reach out and share, and tell you're not alone. I hear you and I care, and there is a God in Heaven that cares even more than I ever could.
I can barely lift my eyes to Jesus with the weight of my heartbreak, but He still holds me in His arms like a broken little lamb and is patiently patching up my wounds, inside and out. He is even patient to hear my lament and complaint.
I'm praying you find rest for your soul.