Sunday, 31 May 2015

Day 28: what do you feel is your greatest strength?

I think one of my greatest strengths is my determination and will power to do what I believe it right. This will power and determination has not always had a positive effect on my life however. In a way, my will power and determination was a part of the reason I was able to become anorexic and underweight in the first place.
As much as I hate comments like these, I do believe eating disorders require will power and determination

While I was developing my illness and starving myself, My anorexia started using my will power and determination for its own selfish use. My anorexia made me believe that I needed to lose weight and be thinner, so that is exactely what I did. No matter how hungry I felt or how loudly my parents screamed, I didnt give in and eat. I was determined to do what my anorexia told me was right.
Since deciding I needed to change my ways and that I wanted to recover, I have started to use my great will power and determination positively. While I have always been a very determined person, I believe that my will power and determination has only become as strong as it now is, since I have been sick.

Now I always use my will power and determination to fight my anorexia, instead of to do what it wants me to do. No matter how hard things get, I never give into my anorexia or give up. No matter how loudly my anorexia screams at me, I scream back louder. This is why I know I am going to recover, because of my determination and willingness too push myself through when things are hard.




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