Thank god I found blogging

Before I found recovery blogs online, I had lost all hope of ever recovering. I had been to specialist after speciallist however none of  them had ever been able to help me. One even told me that there really was no point in continuing to see her whilst I was not willing to change. The problem was not that I was unwilling to change, but instead the problem was that I didn't know I could change. I had never been shown anything by anyone to make me believe I would ever be able to recover and change just felt far too difficult and impossible.

I cant remember exactly how I came accross my first recovery blog online but it instantly inspired me and filled me with hope that my future did not necessarily have to have anorexia in it. Although the girl whose blog I had found had already been declared healthy from her anorexia, I went back to her earlest post so that I could read them all in chronological order. This allowed me to truly see the transformation this girl had taken from being incredibly anorexic and unwell to health and hapiness. This showed me that recovery was possible!

I didn't start my own blog for another couple of years but I still continued reading other peoples recovery blogs. While I managed to stop losing weight in this time I did not make any dramatic recovery progress and my anorexia still seemed to rule my life. Things were not good for me living at home and in a way, my anorexic behaviours were the one thing that felt familiar and safe. I still think that reading recovery blogs was still helpful for me at that time however as it kept giving me hope and inspiring me to want to get better.

 It wasn't until I moved out of home at the start of this year and I started my own recovery blog that everything fell in to place. It is only theen that I was able to fully committ to my recovery, gain weight and make mental progress. I still read other peoples recovery blogs everyday and I find that they still help me so much. And writing my own blog has helped me enormously too as it has made me feel as though I need to keep making recovery progress, not only for me but also for my readers.

The support I have had from my wonderful readers is the thing that keeps me going every single day and gets me through the tough times. It is so important to me that I make a full recovery, not only for myself but so that I can show everyone else battling anorexia that recovery is possible. The message I try to get out through my blog is 'If I can do it, so can you,' and this is what I truly believe. I honestly believe that anyone can recover from anorexia as long as you believe in yourself and believe it is possible!