Positive 1: I worked at the supermarket today and it was no where near as cold as it was on the weekend when I worked. Instead of being 9 degrees when we got to work this morning, it was allready 12 degrees and throughout the day it increased to 16 degrees.
positive 2: I worked with my mum and we got along really well which was great. I barely ever see my mum anymore as we are both so busy with work so it was nice to spend a bit of time with her and have a chat. Even if it was just between serving customers.
Positive 3: Tonight I had yoga which as always I really enjoyed. Tonight was my seventh night of doing the yoga and I think I am enjoying it more and more each week. While I am not getting more flexible (as I am already incredibely flexible) I can feel myself getting stronger and I am also getting more 'in tune' with my body as the weeks progress.
Positive 4: As I looked around the room at yoga tonight and saw that I was not the skinniest girl and that there were in fact lots of girls skinnier then me, I did not wish for a moment that I could be smaller then I curretly am. For the first time I could actually say that I accept the fact that there are people out there who are skinnier than me and I am completely ok with it.
Positive 5: I made myself a delicious dessert when I got home from yoga. It consisted of a banana, vanilla icecream and chocolate topping. I haven't had this combination is an extremely long time but it was so yummy! I will definetely be having it again soon!
Positive number 4 was amazing and it made me so incredibly proud of you! I'm always so proud of you haha! You're doing so well and it gladdens my heart to hear of you having such great days. You're right, don't worry about them ending, just enjoy them whilst they last...that's what I've learnt to do :) Sending you lots of love xoxo
ReplyDeleteAs always, thank you Annie. Your kindness and support always helps me so much! X
DeleteThis is go great to see Karly. Try not to get to focused or obsessed with your body and how you look. Remember you are still pretty skinny and only in early stages of a healthy weight. Don't let the anorexia trick you into thinking wrongly about your body. You are stronger than that, so well done for not letting yourself think too much about how you look in comparison to others. You are still at a low weight, so please don't get stuck here as the anorexic thoughts will not get any better without reaching your healthy set pint. Remember that you weight can plateau in recovery but it isn't necessarily your set point until your period returns and you have maintained the weight for 6 or so months xxxx
ReplyDeleteThankyou! And I know your right. I do need to reach my healthy set point if I havent done so already. I supose that is how i will know whether I am at my healthy set point or not. If my anorexic thoughts remain, this is a fair indication that I need to gain even more weight. Thanks for commenting:) x
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